That LPF dream   ¶ 11:06 PM 0 Comments

  scared and anxious i'm telling you i'm scared and anxious.

(not about my driving test this monday.. the examiner shd be scared, not me.)

scared and anxious about my upcoming filming. all the planning, and imagination is going to fall in place (or out of place) the next weekend. my crew and actress, please dont back out on me. really need you. and all the moral support i can get.

i just keep imagining that everything will fall apart. me. my crew. my set. my film. so my dear friends, please help me by a simple comment on my film and a yes i would like to help you out in someway. dont wanna falter first step down the path. trying to get over my nerves, pms, my blurness and all to make this work. so please please please..

first it was a dream, then it was a pile of mess to clear, now its taking shape. all that i can think of dreaming, awake is film film film. make or break. make or break.

• need a van and a driver.
• need a few movers (i dont mind women power)
• need a mr/mrs checklist
• need a lighting person
• need a welfare officer (jo dont go running)
• need a camera man
• need 2 male actors for 2 short scenes.
• (will take you less than half the day, no facial expressions. super easy.)

7th and 8th.

i have yet to dress my character. need a gown, red or white or silver.. (kat?).
BAH! enough. i need to stop thinking of these.

only 6 more days. i'm so unprepared. scared and anxious.. really scared.

save me lord. watch over me and dont let me falter.


just wanna say: hui, love you and thanks for being there all the time. :) you're my gift from heaven.  ¶ 10:27 PM 2 Comments

  她. My experimental film. An experimental art film.
See if you get whats going on. everything happens in one room. through the course of zooming out from the main character's, ah juan, face to the whole room. we see her present and past. do read through and give me your frank comments.
(below is a list of whats gonna happen or what you'll see in sequence in the film)



1. Hand browses cd rack and picks out a cd. (titles)

2. Little girl in school uniform humming and playing in a room.

3. A row of drawings line on the wall.

4. Little girl carries her school bag, pins up a new drawing with her name(zhen) on it and leaves the room.

5. Hand swaying with the CD as she walks

6. Ah juan walks into the same room and approachs the cd player and plays the cd.

7. She starts to put makeup. Traces her hand to body to barefeet. At her feet there is a mess of cloths.

8. Zoom out to see full body.

9. Zoom out to see a mess of cloths behind.

10. (Another image of her)A messed up her rampages through the cloths and hides in a long clothe.

11. Clothes are thrown at her. She is being blamed and chased out of the house.

12. Full body, clear background. She is putting on makeup. *can see her (no.2) rampaging through the cloths in the back.

13. Close up on Ah juan's eyes. She puts on mascara.

14. She uses a tissue.

15. Drops it on the floor on the left.

16. Pan to a lot of crumpled tissue and tissue boxes on the floor.

17. She is tearing. Wiping her tears away, ruining her makeup.

18. She is holding hand (wears a wedding band) with a man giggling. The man rests his hand over her tummy and calls her mummy.

19. Phone on the floor. Tissues being throw in. News of the death of her husband.

20. Full body. Clear background. Zoomed out to see she puts on makeup. *She (no.2) is rampaging through the cloths, she (no.3) is tearing -- can be seen in the back.

21. Close up on her lips. She puts on lipstick.

22. A beer bottle rolls to the right and knocks into a lot of other beer bottles. Zoom out to see her drinking, laughing and crying.

23. Body of a guy and a girl flirting. Guy pushing beer to girl.

24. beer bottle breaks

25. wide shot of room in a mess. she finishes makeup. *She (no.2) is rampaging through the cloths. She (no.3) is tearing. She (no.4)drinking. -- can be seen in the back.

26. A pair of heels sits by the door.

27. She puts on a necklace with the wedding band as a pendant.

28. She writes a note for her daughter, zhen.

29. See scene (room in a mess) through the window. She walks to the door.

30. Feet wear heels. And leaves.

31. Returns back to look like the room the little girl left.


This is essentially what i'm going to film. the film name is "she" (她）。
it is about the objectification of the women of the night. that they go through the same love and desperation that each one of us goes through. at the same time this is an experimental film where i seek to move away from the usual narrative structure. in this film the story of a lady is told through the revealing of a room. a close analogy would be the room is the book and as we move through it, we read it. then as we leave the book is closed.

i dont think its a worthless try. but seriously.. ihatemyfilm. scott forbides that sentence, he'll fail me if he see that sentence..  ¶ 9:38 PM 3 Comments

  I'm not giving up yet. i'm not such a great publicity.
i dont really write good scripts.
i'm not much of a director.
i've missed so many bowling trainings.
i quitted being a part of the SU exco.
i've offended (ignored) so many people this year.
i dont seem to see any of my usedtobeclose friends anymore,
and they dont seem to care i'm not there.
i dont even seem to see any of those newly made (and lost) friends.
i'm becoming this 'pregnant' looking pig.
i'm not a good daughter.
nor a good girlfriend.

...

(tell me) i'm not giving up yet.  ¶ 9:28 PM 0 Comments

  TIME TO WORK! saturday late morning.. brightly lit room, no glaring light and a nice breeze.

TIME TO WORK!
set designs!
film scripts!
camera actions!
sound composing!
location filming!
shot composing!

:) sort of loving the slacking and the buzz in my life :)

support singapore films by watching singapore dreaming at a cinema k? :)
and my friends. as much as i need you. if you need me in anyway, just drop me a mail sms tag anything :)

lotsa smiles :) for you smile.  ¶ 11:10 AM 0 Comments

  fdtfy kkzlyfn..

got it from a business email.. from fdtfy kkzlyfn.. whoever that is.

She's a nut. Say it with flowers. Spring rain, Fall gold. Stuck in a rut. Up a tree. Stone cold sober. Your all washed up. The way to a man's heart is through his stomach. Tossed around like a hot potato. When it rains it pours. When pigs fly. She's a nut. This is for the birds. Stir up an ant's nest. Shall I compare thee to a summer's day. You say potayto, I say potahto. She's a nut. Some like carrots others like cabbage.
Weed it out. Which came first, the chicken or the egg. What's done is done. Waking up with the chickens. Top of the morning. Timing is everything. Still water runs dirty and deep. Rough as a cob. Thick as a brick. Play a harp before a cow. We hung them out to dry. Sow dry and set wet. There may be snow on the roof, but there's fire in the belly. Plain as water. Your name is mud.

Timing is everything. Tastes like chicken. Watch and wait. Top of the morning. Run to seed. Timber! What goes up must come down. Weed out. Take time to smell the roses. A thing of beauty is a joy forever. There's no time like the present. A stepping stone to. Tools of the trade. Through the grapevine. You can't teach an old dog new tricks. The sun will shine into our yard to. Which came first, the chicken or the egg. Spaceship earth. Weed it out. Where man is not nature is barren.
Through the grapevine. Stand your ground. Water it down. The scum of the earth. Tastes like chicken. Pull it up by the roots. A thing of beauty is a joy forever. Some like carrots others like cabbage. So hungry I could eat a horse. They're like two peas in a pod. A rose is a rose is a rose. Play a harp before a cow. To live from hand to mouth. Slow as a snail. Rise and shine. Survival of the fittest. Say it with flowers. We'll hand you out to dry.

  ¶ 11:01 AM 0 Comments

  NOTICE! serious error note everyone!!

the filming dates are 7, 8, 14, 15 of OCTOBER. i repeat OCTOBER!!
how blur i was..

so pls! HELP ME!! no experience needed.. i just need manpower. and trust me. its going to be fun. we'll be heading to a cool place in town.. an abandon police station at outrum.. do help!
i apreciate any help in any sense so drop me a tag, sms, msn.. all works!

love yall!

hey gang! gosh... i'm talking like totally awesome.. like my US profs. sweeet.  ¶ 10:41 AM 0 Comments

  HELP! and THANKS! supposedly.. i wanted to do some scenography work (set design) during this hour break for lunch before my scenography class starts.. but hell. i've had enough of sketchup.



this is what i've came up with last night. think its good enough.. though its not great or anything.. it has a little standard at least.. but since i said "supposedly".. i'm moving away from scenography. i can get more of that later..

in any case, i'm looking for production crew helpers, actors, script critics, music composers for my short film production. HELP!!! COME ON! now's the time to call me, sms me, tag me.. bug me. cos i'll be paying for all the food that you'll have on the days of filming and i'll host a party after the film is produced. promise.

really really need your help. DESPERATE. cos i have only 4 weeks till filming on the 7, 8, 14, 15 of october. and i'll be meeting all those who would and should have their say in the script meet for dinner most probably this week. i have to finish the script in like less than 10 days!!

so everyone.. please!! i'm begging here! read my blog and BUG ME!!
Thanks so much! you'll get a great christmas present for helping me, cos santa saw you doing a great deed. :)

HELP! and THANKS!  ¶ 1:39 PM 0 Comments

  3 Scene exposition of SQ FIL 260 Narrative Writing
The first 3 scenes.
-Introduce a character, setting, a goal and what's at stake.
Done by: Fu Shiqi

fade in

a table full of notes, textbooks and pens scattered around. An examination timetable is pinned on the wall in front of the table. calendar shows that there is an examination today at 930am.

alarm clock rings. SHE reaches out to snooze the alarm, yawns and rolls back into the blanket and sleeps.

alarm clock shows its 930am.



seriously. this came straight to my mind right after i stoned in front of my computer doing late nights and waking up in the nick of time for class the nxt day. so killing yourself actually helps.

great. gotten myself a short 3 scenes that works. takes only 10secs for you establish who she is and what shit she's gonna get into.  ¶ 1:30 PM 0 Comments

  6am is it 6 or 6? i mean..

coffee made me awake till 6am?!!!! class starts at 9.. going to bed now.

coffee makes you shiver awake..  ¶ 6:13 AM 0 Comments

  And so they wallow in alcohol. and so they wallow in alcohol.

i'm wallowing in ice coffee at 2 am in the morning.. 3 cups full. and i'm going to 'sleep' when i get over it. did 1 out of 10 assignments. and i wallow in ice coffee and dont want to do work.

somebody shoot me. just kill me. seriously. kill me.
i'll provide the fork. mayb the knife. i have a penknife.  ¶ 2:36 AM 0 Comments

  The Bored Post i'm in school now..
(such a boring start.. tells you how bored i am at the current moment.)

an hour till my class starts.. just hoping that it won't be boring as usual.. i'm talking boring stuff.. this is the boring post.. which is done when i'm bored.. to bore you to death.. and free myself from this boredom.. are you bored yet? i'm still bored.. and the rhythming sound of the keyboard when i type sounded less boring just now.. but now its just getting so constant that it's becoming boring.. and i'm using a boring font.. a very clear type that's emotionless making it feel more boring..

and my dear sitting beside me is becoming bored.. as he sits staring at me typing boring stuff.. for the bored post.. which is done to make you understand how bored i am.. and make you feel the boredom that i'm going through.. and i know that i'm not going to stop this boring thing.. till i feel that it's getting boring.. and you are going to feel bored soon.. and i also know that..


LOL. actually i do have work to do just that i dont feel like and cant do it that the current moment.. cos i dont have my laptop and the school computers that have the programme are not available..

gosh. i still can feel that monotone voice in my head.. i'm like dragging every word that i'm saying.. even though i'm actually looking forward to classes 'cause they are really fun now.. i have a film production class, an editting class, scenography class (designing stage.. sets..) and forensic science..
and this semester..
no more WAHings.. (if you've forgotten.. Western Art History -ing)
its..
AAHing.. (asian art hist.. so scream.. AAH!)

loving school. even though i feel bored at this current moment and am boring myself by typing a boring post, making my dear feel as bored as me.. and decided to run away before the real boredom gets to him.. and makes him bored like me going on ranting like a lunatic..

this is a boring post, ain't it?  ¶ 12:05 PM 0 Comments